What a week! My emotions do feel like they paid for a ticket on the Rollercoaster but failed to get off after one ride!! Up and down, round and round, and I only have myself to blame.
I am a quiet fumer. I fume in quiet. I acquiesce. I sideline myself. I do anything I can to avoid potential conflicts, and I am DETERMINED to get over it!!
It is hardly surprising to know that my birth sign is that of Pisces. I display all the traits - and then some!!!
I love to compromise when ever it is possible; my two fish swimming in opposite directions, never bumping into one another just swimming happily on by. Some folk will tell you we are not good at making Decisions. That we are Ditherers. That we Debate an issue far too long for our own good. That we like to Deliberate a topic without Decisively making the all important decision in the end. Could be true I suppose? Though I am not sure!!! ( and there you have it; me wanting to please everybody over myself).
So on the scale of 'how did I do this week?' ...not very well. Could do better. C+. I've been agitated, disappointed, annoyed, downright furious at times. I've been surprised, let down, quiet, a little assertive once, sad, peaceful....and so much more. But have I actually told anyone what is really on my mind? Have I shared my thoughts truthfully and assertively and with conviction? Probably not that well. But I have been taking lessons!!! Ha! That shocked you! Not lessons in the sense of being taught in the classical way, but on the QT, and by observation. So prepare yourselves for some new habits - which is what my Daily Greatness Journal advocates - daily - and a new me who says what she thinks and is prepared to deal with the fallout without a hint of an emotional meltdown!!!!
p.s. if I don't write anything this week.....it went wrong!
Sue xx
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