Review

So I was working towards positivity yesterday (as I do every day). I feel I succeeded to some extent but there is always room left over for improvement in any quest isn't there?!

"Learn to value yourself, which means: to work for your happiness".  Ayn Rand.

I think that is where I am right now - working hard, fighting hard for my happiness. My current work is coming to an end soon and I have spent the last few months virtually paralysed with the fear of having no more security in my life. Losing one's income is terrifying, and there are so many people experiencing it during the economic crisis, I realize it can happen to me too. My wish yesterday was to find some acceptance of my life and where I am in it, and I did manage that in part.
I was standing by the printing machine outside our offices and one of the secretaries came along wearing the most beautiful purple outfit that just seemed to light her up! She looked lovely so I said so!
Our conversation moved to my cardigan which I have been attached to for roughly 20 years now - and I discovered she worked in a pure wool shop in Amsterdam at the weekends. We stood and discussed the beauties of wool for 15 minutes. Mixed in the conversation I learnt that she is a practising Buddhist and what that means in her life; why she had adopted all that it means to be a Buddhist, what it gives her back, and how it has transformed her from victim to victor. It was very uplifting and interesting and I learnt something new yesterday just by engaging in this wonderful conversation with an amazing lady. She's going to tell me where this wool shop is!!!! She told me that when she works in the shop she leaves at the end of the day feeling bright and gay and full of happy thoughts because of all the colour around her. She leaves the office feeling in neutral - it doesn't bring her the same feelings of wonder and joy. So my acceptance yesterday was that although this job may be ending, I have to be true to what I know brings me joy at work, and go after that again, step by step, but moving forwards positively.
It was a good lesson yesterday.
I am starting today at B - for BRAVE.
Try and do the same.
Sue xx