Disappointed

..but trying to accept things are the way they are going to be regarding work in the immediate future.

How do people manage to do the wholehearted mindfulness thing and stay focused on one day at a time?! Darned if I know! Yet I do see the beauty of only being concerned with the coming few hours until bedtime and never thinking about tomorrow...especially when 'tomorrow might never come'....
and yet I cannot help myself going further. I Dream such a lot and mostly about rehearsing situations or problems that I know I need to Deal with but am afraid to. Or because I don't like conflict so say what I have to say in my deepest dream states and rid myself of the fear by doing so. Try it! You get to say all the mean and nasty things you are thinking without actually hurting anybody's feelings. You get to have that argument with your best friend without ever upsetting them. You get to shout and rage and scream without uttering one single sound. You get to practice giving bad news or saying goodbye without seeing how that affects the other person. But does it really give the satisfaction or truthfulness we are seeking? Is it fair play? Do you feel relief or not?
What it never does, is permit you to see how someone else feels when they are privy to your emotions. You are only dealing with one half of the issue and totally neglecting the other 50%. And you will walk away never knowing the real outcome - the surprise or the pleasure; the sadness or the pain; the shared relief and excitement; the connection you can make with another person whoever they may be.

So, time to man up, step up to the plate and get on with it!!!! Where did  I put those big girl panties?.....
Sue xx