H is for

High

Sensitivity.

And being a Highly 

Sensitive person

I think I will write about it

today.

As part of my H exploration.

I am ok about having HS.

I understand myself pretty well

and know that I need to give myself

plenty of reassurance and encouragement

if  I want to avoid all the less pretty things

associated with HS.

But it is only when one starts to read the information

about it, and track it back to one's own experiences

or compare reactions to situations, or 

coping strategies one learns to develop 

over the years,

that you come to fully appreciate who you are.

There are annoying traits, I agree.

Anyone sitting with me through a film will

know that!! I can burst into tears just by listening

to the opening bars of the soundtrack!

"Lassie" films were banned in our house when I 

was growing up. My mother couldn't 

stand my sobbing on the settee every Sunday!

I cannot go to a violent film at all.

Watching "Jaws" has scarred me for life

and prevents me from wanting to swim or even

look at dark blue water.

I will never be able to visit an animal refuge, ever.

I don't read violent crime stories.

"Warhorse" is out of the question!!!

A film is real for me, and I get totally

lost in it when watching so my ability to filter

is really poor. 

Books are the same.

Music too.

But I can use music to block or contain thoughts that stress

me or bother me for a while, and I can focus better if I am

heading into a situation I dislike and need to control

my emotions ahead of it, so that's good.

I can enter a room and know instantly what the 

atmosphere is there.

I can sense the emotions of others in an instant.

Sometimes they percolate through my filters and I 

feel them too.

Everything is lived in high definition, if you like.

That is a good analogy.

The things other people miss, I see or feel.

It affects my body clock too.

Sleep is essential and I am known for liking lots of it!!!

I can be on my own and not have a sense of loneliness.

I can work a bit, need a break, and go back to it quite effortlessly.

I think and plan ahead as that is stress-freedom for me.

So, that's me.

Sue xx