SMASHING

Apparently this is a new hobby akin to Scrapbooking

but introduced by K&Co.

I like the sound of it!

I have been trying to find my mojo to get back

into card-making and scrapping for so long now

and nothing has been happening.

I simply can't settle down to it.

My frustration at sitting here doing nothing is immense

now my freedom has been curtailed somewhat.

I am struggling to sit still.

I have read all my books.

I need to create.

So I am going to seek out the blogs

on this smash 'n grab idea

and see whether it will jumpstart

my imagination and revitalize my

creative juices and 

GIVE ME SOMETHING TO DO!!!!!

Ugh!

At the moment I am at home and the sun is struggling to 

appear and I am bored.

I hardly ever get this feeling but I have it right now!

I am annoyed at not being able to just jump

up and go.

I am listening to the sensible part of me

and taking it easy so that the pain

reduces and I don't make matters worse.

But oh how I long to just go!!!

Walking as far as the shop is too far.

I will regret that once I am home again.

It's only around the corner but with my crutch and 

a shopping bag to tote around it is too much.

I want to drive to the supermarket.

We need things!!!!

I worry that my leg will get fixed and not be able to

bend it again.

I worry that it will twist and cause me a lot more pain

like on Friday.

I want to be reckless and just take the chance

but what if????

Tomorrow I am going to the hospital again.

I hope to hear what the options are.

I want to do what work I can and not sit here

and mope and worry and feel down.

I am no good at this dependence malarky.

No good at all.

Sue xx