....y'know someone well, and yet they still have the capacity to shock and surprise you and make you re-think every single thing you ever thought you knew about them!!
Remaining true to yourself under such pressure is one of the hardest things I have ever had to try to do. (I was going for the 'to do' but realised that it is the trying part that matters).
I can give no guarantees.
I cannot promise I will be able to stay focused and unbiased.
I cannot unequivacally state that I will not want to be mean and cruel back.
I cannot say that I will not want to raise issues simply because it is the fight back way to go.
I cannot pretend that I am ok.
I can only do what I always set out to do in these unpleasant situations and that is to be myself.
I have never had time for bitterness and loathing.
I have never understood why anyone would want to overindulge in warring and unrest for the sake of it.
I do not know why once persons have gone their separate ways anyone would be determined to ruin them just because of spite.
I just don't get it.
So, in the midst of all my anguish and fear and my sadness and pain, I am desperately trying to understand why I find myself in this situation and what the outcome may be. For it is the outcome that interests me and nothing more.
I will represent my case fairly and openly, and put my blind faith in justice and the law.
I will allow myself to accept what I cannot change, and place my trust firmly in the hands of others who have the deciding vote. I will be the better man in the end because my integrity will remain intact. I will become stronger for it. I will not think in terms of the victor and the victim. I will be kind because at the end of the day, when there is nothing left, one can always choose to be kind. Everyone can do that. It just takes courage.
Sue xx
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