It's only when you come to go out somewhere different and need to haul an outfit from the back of your wardrobe that one realizes . . . . . 'I have nothing to wear'!!!!
I have not bought any new clothes for such a long time that nothing I have fits ( lost weight apparently since I last wore them/or not ); I feel odd not wearing my jeans with the holes in; wearing tights is horrid; too warm for my boots and thick jumpers; jewellry other than my usual stuff feels weird; everything looks old and worn out - do I need to go on?!!!
It is only the team evening after all. If I wear black trousers instead of my jeans, that is different enough I hope. Can't find the black socks so blue will do. A coloured scarf around my neck livens things up just a tad methinks....matches the blue socks!!! We are not going out, just round to someones house for an Italian evening but there will be photos of the team taken; hence the concern. Trying not to look poor is the whole point of this exercise in flinging things in and out of the wardrobe. I need to feel I can hold my own with my colleagues, and not look as though I never buy stuff any more. Luckily I don't think it will be a problem. We are casual people at the end of the day and I doubt anyone will have got their glad-rags on really; it's all in my head, this worry, this fear, this abiding shame. We will all just be ourselves hopefully, and be happy being together and sharing a fun evening meal. No matter what I wear I am still the same person wearing the clothes, and I think that is what we need to remember.
The substance of a person is their character, their spirit, their smile. That never changes so with that thought in my head, I have settled upon this outfit, and the rest be dammed!!!!
Sue xx
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